Sometimes it's hard to surrender

I’m Ika from Medan-Indonesia. For the past 2 months I’ve been working with other youth for the preparation of our Youth Camp. It is the first Youth Camp that we’ve ever had in Indonesia. We all worked very hard and though we experienced some difficult moments, everything worked out well and we felt strongly united. The evening before leaving for theYouth Camp, we had a deep sharing and this gave us new strength. We also renewed our commitment to live for those who would attend this camp.
Throughout the preparation, I was very excited to share the life I try to live with other youth. I told Jesus in my heart that I was ready to love everyone.

Due to a stomach ache, I was not feeling so well, and at a certain point I took a medicine that actually caused me a very bad allergic reaction. I started to worry because the rashes were appearing all over my body, and started to realize that I needed medical assistance and that I might not be able to go to the Youth-camp. I did all I could to avoid the will of God that was changing for me.…  I was taken to the hospital and the doctor’s advice was that I should stay in town. It was not easy to say my “yes” to this unforeseen situation but my unity with the others helped me. There were moments when I couldn’t breathe and I needed to be given oxygen. Of course I was very scared of what was happening, but I tried to repeat in my heart, “Yes, Jesus, I know, I know, this is your will…”  and keep loving by greeting the patient next to me, and smiling to the nurses… Now I understood that when we try to avoid the Will of God, we feel lost, but when we turn back to Him and do His Will happily, God will give us the best.