In summer 1988 something
totally unforeseen happened. While playing tennis one day, Chiara Luce
experiences a very sharp pain in her shoulder. At first she did not take much
notice and neither does her doctor. However, since the pain persists, the
doctor carried out further tests. The verdict: osteogenic sarcoma – one of the
most serious and painful forms of cancer and it has already started spreading.
In February 1989, Chiara Luce
underwent her first surgery.
On
hearing this news, Chiara Luce, after a moment’s silence, accepted the outcome
courageously, without tears or rebellion. “I’m young. I’m sure I’ll make it,”
she says.
In June 1989, Chiara Luce
underwent a secondo surgery. This time, hopes were slim.
She
is admitted to hospital many times and her kindness and unselfishness really
stand out. Setting aside her own need to rest, she spent time walking around
the wards with a drug-dependent girl suffering from serious depression. This
meant getting out of bed despite the pain caused by the huge growth on her
spine. “I’ll have time to rest later,” she used to say.
While
Chiara Luce was in hospital, young and adult friends of the Focolare Movement used
to take turns in hospital in order to give her support. The treatment was
painful and she wanted to know every detail of her illness. For each new,
painful surprise, her offering was firm: “For you, Jesus, if you want it, I want it
too!”
One
day Chiara Luce wrote: “Jesus sent me this illness at the right
moment.”
One
of her friends shared: “At first we thought we would visit Chiara Luce to keep
her spirits up, however, we soon realized that in fact, we were the ones who
needed her. Her life was like a magnet drawing us towards her.” The cancer was
spreading mercilessly, but Chiara Luce tried her best to live a normal and
happy life.
One
of the medical staff said, “Through her smile, and through her eyes full of
light, she showed us that death doesn’t exist; only life exists.” She had to
undergo surgery twice. The subsequent chemotherapy treatment caused her to lose
her hair, which she was very proud of. As each lock of hair fell, she used to say
simply, but sincerely, “For you, Jesus”.
In July 1989: the tumour
spread quickly. Chiara Luce was not yet 18 years of age when she lost the use
of her legs. She told her mother: “I really used to enjoy cycling around.”
And her mother replied, “If Jesus has taken away the use of your
legs, he will give you wings.”
After
some time, Chiara Luce said, “If I had to choose between walking or going
to heaven, I would choose going to heaven.”
Slowly
slowly, Chiara Luce started having the foreboding of death: “Mum,
is it fair to die at 17 years of age?” and her mother replies, “I do
not know. I only know that it is important to do God’s will, if this is his
plan for you.” Whenever she heard this, Chiara Luce would redouble her
efforts to love. So, for example, she gave all her savings to a friend leaving
on a humanitarian mission to Africa, saying, “I have everything. I don’t need
this anymore.”
Chiara
Luce spent her the last months of her life completely immobile in bed: through
telephone calls she followed a group of Youth for a United World (Y4UW) in
Savona. She also participated in their congresses and activities through
messages, postcards and posters, and she tried to spread the spirituality of
unity among her friends and school companions. She actually invited many of
them for Genfest (an international Youth for a United World gathering, held in
Rome in May of 1990). She had the joy of watching the Genfest’90 thanks to a satellite
dish antenna (novelty at the time) mounted for the purpose on the roof of her
home.
She
had always Chiara Lubich’s support and the latter wrote her the following
message: “God loves you immensely and wants to penetrate the depths of your soul
in order to allow you experience heaven on earth.”
Till
the very end, Chiara Luce refused to take morphine, saying: “It
reduces my lucidity,” and she added, “and there’s only one thing I can
do now: to offer my suffering to Jesus because I want to share as much as
possible in his suffering on the cross.”
For more information,
visit www.chiaraluce.org
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